MRT Ride to Clark Quay
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
The Singapore trip was more than enough for me. It was something i needed to do so I can finally say, that i've moved on and everything else is in the Past.
As I was saying goodbye to the Past, I had to make the hardest decision of putting an end into something that could have been beautiful. I had to do it now before my strength leaves me completely... I had to finally say it's time to put an end to something that could have made me happy... happier!
You've asked me time and again, "Why?" but the only reason I could give you is that - it's all for the best and that it's a long story. I know how cruel these statements were but its really harder to explain this all to you, right now. At this time, I'm still lost and how I wish I had the courage to acknowledge what was happening to me and to "us" when things where much simplier.
That one phone call I had to make was one of the hardest things I had to do. All the signs I have been waiting for fell before my very eyes and I could have fooled myself that it was merely chances that i stumbled upon these signs. When I called you up, it was something i dreaded the most. I heard my voice tremble and my hands were shaking involuntarily. It was pretty big for me and that it's harder to have "this" when all things are uncertain. My not so fortunate experiences proved to me to that im a certified RISK AVERSE and not to mention, COWARD. I am sorry that it has come this point. I know I haven't given you ENOUGH reasons for my action. And for that, I am sorry. No matter how many times I apologize, I know that all you ever needed to hear was the TRUTH. But what is the Truth? and are you ever ready to hear the Truth from me?
Let me stay this way for awhile. Let me sulk in my misery and when I'm ready, I will tell you the TRUTH. I am so sorry that this had to happen to you - to us.
Tuesday, March 2, 2010
I am on a countdown mode these days. My grouppies and I can barely contain the excitement for our first international travel for the year. Although Gracey and I had our HK experience way back 2007, this time, we grew in numbers (there is 5 of us now traveling) and that means 5 times the fun! Just the thought of seeing the Merlions, Esplanade, Cable cars and just by the mere mention of Singapore make me wanna scream and shout in a good way!
Hopefully, it will be as exciting as we all hoped it would be. I have always wanted to visit Singapore and this is my chance to explore the country. And so, i'll be counting the days til' at last I can live it up in Singapore